Lost

I read one paper on IEEE Trans. Mag. this summer,
I found lots of papers on this topic from IEEE Trans. Mag. this fall,
I used two weeks to understood a paper written by a guy from BELL LAB.
I believed I can write a great paper based on them,
So, 3 months, I worked on this topic,
Worked on the maths work, which is very complicated.
Get the result,
A Kanel Transform of N order of the first class bessel function,
Then I suddenly found out the first paper is totally wrong,
IT IS A GARBAGE!
I AM LOST!
don't know what to do,
can't sleep, feel depressed and angry.
God help me, find me a way!
Yes, paper is not easy,
especially when you must fight alone, helplessly!