What is really matter in my life?
I feel miserable these two weeks. A lot of pressure from a lot of shitting work. More than 10 hours a day, 7 days a week, I was trapped in these shitting things. No fun, no joy, no happiness. I had this bad flu about half month ago and I have no time to see the doctor,I have no time to have a good rest and I have no time to write my dissertation. And this headache, it is just killing me. This little painful life style made me to think what I really want in my life and what really matters. What I want is not the growing number in my bank account, not the number of the papers I published in those crapping magazines. Of coarse, It won't be the achievement I made for my so called Ph.D degree. It's happiness. What I really want is happiness. What really matter in my life is happiness. It's not the answer just for me, it's for all the humans. The answer is so clear that most people, including me, just can not figure it out. Of course, I need money to find happiness in my life. But time, private time, especially family time is also the necessary element to build happiness in life. I read an article recently, in which I realize it is not money, religion, marriage nor career can bring happiness into me. Happiness is what I can serve for the family, community, country, even the world. Sitting in that boring office like trapped in hell doing so called research, and treated like a junior school student who failed in every term exams, or school kids who never finish home working. That is not happy. That is not just the life style of the student in this school, also the life style those teachers suffering. Bring kids to lab so they can feel not so guilty for not having fun with them in the weekend, send kids to parents because they have no time to babysit them and miss the growing time of them for ever. They sacrifice their weekend, their child growing memory, even the marriage, and for what? Not happiness I can tell. I always admire Zhao, a really smart student who graduated from my lab years ago. She and her husband find what they are good at, try funny things, made the money, and enjoy their life. That's happy. So I put another thing in my TLAPT--Todo List After Ph.D Torture, to find happy life style, and put it on the first line.





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